Feeling fed up - not depressed but something

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Hi all,
I really don't know how to say this and feel really stupid but I'm just not happy.
I have the most gorgeous 2 boys, loving husband, a lovely house, nice car, good job and I'm healthy - all the things that would make life complete. But I'm just not happy, I feel so low in myself - complete lack of confidence, feel I could cry at any moment and am getting wound up and frustrated over the most ridiculous things.
My husband loves me dearly but he's not the best at helping out and so we've been arguing much more over little things to the point that I'm talking myself out of liking him, he's just annoying to me.
My friends are turning out to not quite be the people I thought they were and I can't trust them, so find myself on edge all the time when speaking to them.
I don't think I'm depressed as I can do the day to day things, happy playing with my boys and love them more than anything.
I just don't think I love myself anymore or have any confidence left in myself anymore and don't know what to do.

Sorry totally feeling sorry for myself and feel guilty for it just needed to say it to someone

Just wanted to send you a message of hope OP, I can honestly say I have been where you are and about 5 years ago I was in the same place as you, I took a huge step back and looked at my life and what made ME happy, stepping away from my 'so called' friends definitely gave my self esteem a boost, I swam, went to yoga, read lots and lots of books, some self help ones and some fiction ones just for fun. I was just kind to myself. It takes time but play your favourite music, drink your coffee and stopped beating yourself up, because of my new hobbies I made new friends who liked me for me and very slowly piece by piece I rebuilt my self esteem, I'm not perfect but I'm better, to be fair on yourself you've started out on your journey by writing this post.