what could i do?

[doziduck]

I have butterflies in my stomach and can't stop worrying about things that can possibly go wrong in life especially the health of my kids.
ds goes for vaccinations tomorrow and my stomach is in knots about that too.
Due to go out for a meal tonight with two of my friends who are very 'together' and i don't feel like i could eat a thing, in fact i could just burst into tears! Don't like my friends to know how i am because i don't think people want to spend time with a misery (sad but true)
what can i do, i am so fed up with myself

Do you think it's just a bad day or are you feeling like this a lot? If it makes you feel any better (which it probably won't!) my ds is due for his MMR on Monday and my stomach is also in knots like yours. I have nearly rung the surgery 3 times today to cancel and burst into tears this afternoon worrying about it!

Can you really not talk to your friends? You might be surprised how sympathetic they are. I'd go out for the meal - you don't have to put on a big happy face but you'll probably enjoy it once you get there. Have a few glasses of wine and a good old gossip. Sorry if this sounds trite - I do know how you feel.

don't get "fed up with yourself" if you feel bad about yourself that just makes things worse. sounds like you may be suffering a little from depression/anxiety atm, which you have mentioned on another thread (hope you don't mind me cross-referring). True friends take the rough with the smooth - however if you don't feel comfortable talking to them and not seeming "together" enough, then vent on here. However "together" you friends may appear, they will have their own fears/insecurities/neuroses - possibly less than you, but these will still be there. If you're feeling a bit down its easy to imagine that everyone else has a great life/personality but that's not necessarily true behind the social mask that most of us wear. A bit of distraction will do you the world of good - as will a good meal!

got visitors so go to go now
hope you have an enjoyable evening!

are you on AD's doziduck? have you spoke to your GP?

I think you need to really

thanx moomina, not sure if i have a problem or if it's normal! I get like this when something triggers it normally. I feel as though i react like this when other people would manage to be quite sane. I spent a night in hospital the other week after he fell and banged his head and i felt nervy and sick for about week after he had recovered. Last night a dog bit him and thats why he's got to go and have the dtp, because he isn't up to date. Also has some issues with his immune system although the hospital do nothing but monitor him with blood tests. Sometimes life just seems too hard.

No, not on a.d's , too worried about them (lol)
thanx though mumsnetters, i'm so glad i can vent on here and your all lovely

Well, those are certainly all things it's normal to worry about. But it does sound as if you are perhaps letting them get to you a little too much. Have you spoken to your GP about anxiety? My mum suffers really badly with anxiety/panic attacks/OCD and I would say that it's really important to get some help as soon as you can, if you feel things are getting on top of you. Don't let yourself drift, and also, don't cut yourself off from your friends. As MTS says, real friends will be there for you. And so will wew! Gotta bath ds now but HTH and hugs. Have a good night.

That should read 'and so will we' . Must preview!