Unfortunately, in my teens and early twenties I was a sun worshipper and a regular user of sunbeds. My natural skin is very pale. I got to the age where I was single and going out a lot and I felt better about myself with a tan. I know I was very stupid. I then had children mid twenties and became a lot more sensible, stopped the sunbeds and other than holidays and sitting out in the garden every now and then I was better. Now in my thirties and though I do still like to sunbathe a bit on holiday I use a high factor as these days I’m more bothered about wrinkles than getting a tan! But i think the damage has already been done.
I have a mole on my thigh, it’s always stood out to me as it’s so dark it’s almost black. It’s not been there my whole life but it has been there a long time. I had it checked almost 4 years ago, at the time they said it was 3mm and looked ok, and to keep an eye on it. Then last year in 2018 I noticed it looked quite dry and scaley and maybe bigger so I went back again. Had a few different GP’s look, referred to a dermatologist - dermatologist agreed with me ‘it’s not right. It needs to come off for a biopsy’
I now have 3 weeks to wait for the biopsy, then two week wait for the results.
Last night I trawled through my old phone and found a pic of my mole from the time I had it checked and it’s only now I see it actually has changed quite a lot. Im not pretty certain it’s a melanoma.
Not sure why I’m posting. DH just dismisses me every time I mention it saying no point talking about it till we know. I get that but I’m so worried. And more than anything I feel so fucking stupid knowing it’s my fault.