i've been weaning my dd from the breast for about 3 months. She's now down to just the night-time feed which i'm thinking of dropping soon as she seems to be growing out of it.
A few weeks ago i noticed a whitish patch of skin on the top part of my right breast and when i pressed down on it i could feel a rather large lump. i know i should have gone straight to my gp but i've been in denial about it until last night when i confided in my dp. He's pushing me to see the doctor asap and has offered to come with me as he knows i'm nervous about it.
truth is i'm a coward at heart and i keep going to bed praying that it'll have disappeared by the time i wake up. i can't stand the thought of not watching my dd grow up, i'm terrified of the idea of chemotherapy and mascectomy and all those things that up until now were just things that applied to other people.
i know i'm being irresponsible in being so reluctant to see the doctor about this as time is really important with these things. i owe it to my daughter to get it investigated asap. i could really do with some moral support to push me to take action. part of me is even afraid i might be wasting the gp's time! how ridiculous is that?