I feel like everything is spiralling out of control. I've always had anxiety issues, health anxiety, and the past few days it's getting out of hand.
I was diagnosed with Graves disease in February of this year but it is now under control and stabilised. Still taking the medication. I developed a sore throat last weekend and have been told it is important to get bloods done to ensure white blood cells are normal because of thyroid meds. Anyway, that was me being poked at in order to get blood.
In the meantime, I've been trying to conceive after a MMC last year. Have been poked, prodded, cameras put up me, everything. Went to see the fertility doc and he started me on 5 days of femara. Today was the last day. Husband gave a sperm sample and was found he has a low count.
Day before yesterday, I was poking at my breasts and found a little tiny thing. Don't even know if it's new, there is one on the other side, it may be tissue and completely normal. This has sent me into panic mode.
Regarding the whole baby thing, I am so afraid about it all. I thought about things yesterday long and hard and chatted to husband last night. I think I want to get all these anxieties away first and out of my head, I want to lose weight, I want to get fit and healthy before I even venture into having a baby. But im 40 now and feel like it's all caving in on me. All the what ifs .