I know another one of those , have a referral for breast lump threads.

[melsy]

I had a thread a few weeks ago and have been back to gp this morning. Seeing as the lump doesnt hurt , but the rest of breast is tender and all bruised above , she didnt muck about today. I have 2-3 wks wait , although dh may have just sorted private cover through his work, this may be the only health issue im not yet exempt for. DH isnt happy about the 2-3 wk wait and wants me seen sooner. I think it may just be a cyst or a fibroadenoma (sp?). I was going to ask what gets done , but I think at the moment ignorance is bliss.

SO to top my last yuck 3 weeks I have this to get myself in a state about. I had barely any sleep last night , dd1 not well now, (after our trauma with dd2) and she was up at 2:3o .

Would have been back sooner melsy but am getting very little sleep at the moment and brain is mush, no concentration and very easily distracted! It takes me at least 10 mins to write any post and even then i cant quite say things how i want to.

Tonight I have been eating frosties, drinking red wine, watching challenge and reading VSC thread so i can definitely recommend junk food and light entertainment

Glad dd is feeling better, its so hard when they're ill but not ill enough to stop them going stir crazy being stuck in the house! Although after your dd2 being in hospital i imagine its actually a big relief for you, but doesn't stop it still being hard work does it. DS1 got chicken pox when DS2 was 2 weeks old, at first he was really ill bless him, spots in ears, mouth, eyes but after couple days he was fine but still covered in spots so couldnt go out anywhere. He was a nightmare!

awww pesh thank you for coming back despite how u feel , know were your at with the sleeping and feeling like moosh. Totally understandable with a little baby boy & 2 others too. OHH gawd the whole chic pox thing is awful isnt it, had that here about 5 weeks ago too, with both of them, one after the other and really severe cases too. I feel chained to this house. I also get that brain block trying to compile a coherent post with some grammar!!

Blimey how is any one gonna believe whats been going on in this house , it all seems so melodramatic when written down.

Im eating crap , watching crap and still wringing hands. OHHH BLUERGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I know we've just spoke but forgot to say, I might be 200 miles from you but you know where I am if you need or want anything. {{{{hugs}}}}

I've just bobbed briefly back on here (i'm at work aso can't stay on) to offer you a cyber-hug (if you'll accept one ) and to wish you lots of luck, love and strength for your difficulties x

How are you melsy? How did it go?

ahh thank you girls , cyber hugs will be great right now. Its been quite a day and Im knackered. I had all the procedures I listed and whilst in the ultra scan they noticed a growth that showed up white inside a dark patch, so they did a deeper biopsy there and then ,with a local. I managed to stay sort of calm and I think the thought of why they were doing it was worse than the procedure ,although seeing his arm rummage around below me wasnt pleasant. As soon as the local wore of I was sore sore sore. Its still tender , but to be expected I supppose.

Its not too bad now , but Im sore down below now, as had another check on my stitches in my nethers this afternoon too (Iknow am I mad today). I also have a UTI on top of it all and have to take antibiotics.

The mammogram and 1st aspiration results came back clear , unfortunately I have to wait (well not to bad as NOWWERE near as long as others waiting on NHS time) , a week for results from the biopsy as have an appt with the consultant again on Thursday afternoon.

Im ok at the moment , I was in a state earlier , but Im calmer now , its everyone else who's phoning me up crying bless em and Ive been consoling them and saying Im ok. What can I say , I have no idea what Thursday will bring ,its probably just a benign cyst and that's all but Im staying as positive as I can. Im never normally like this and Im thinking will I come crashing down at some point , eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek.

I need to find out, well Im not sure if I should , wether you can have a clear mammogram, but still find something wrong????

I would go private. IMO its worth the money for the peace of mind.

Just after I had dd I was bf and found what seemed to be a lump. The gp agreed and referred me on the nhs. Because I was bf I wasn't seen as urgent So had around a 4 week wait. The moment I stepped out of the gp's I called dh in such a state and straight away he told me to book privatly. We didn't have private cover so it cost us around £100-£200 (can't remember exact) BUT I was seen the next day.

Its such a shame that money seems to "talk" on some occasions.

Thankgod it turned out to be nothing and all down to bf and tbh something my gp should have noticed and ruled at straight away BUT Im just glad I got the all clear.

Glad you went private and got it seen to sooner, like you said the wait would have been awful...Personally I think its a disgrace the via the nhs you should have to wait week to get things checked out..whatever it is you are querying...

Sorry you have had a traumatic day today, big hugs to you {{{{}}}}
At least you are one step closer to getting it all resolved. Will watch to see what news you get. Positive vibes..xx

thank you shh, Im going to up and down this week waiting. One minute Im ok and calm , the next Im all jittery and anxious. I need distractions and some hand oholding when wobbly.

Hi
I had similar 6 years ago and an uss reassurred me all was ok-apparrently just accessoery breast tissue.
however went back to gp last week as it got bigger and i had pain down my arm.
He looked up my original notes from 6 years ago which stated at the bottom-referred to surgeons !!!!!
Bit scary seeing as i never was .
Good luck with your appt next week .
Funnily enough they have fast tracked me thro !

Melsy,

Am in exactly same position, waiting on results of biopsy, and trying hard to keep things normal for children/ rest of family. If you want to talk, please CAT me.

Melsy, please accept my hand for holding. You will be fine, honest.

I have gone through all this a few times, the last one being the scariest. Found lump, was referred to breast clinic, was so upset and scared I paid for a private appointment where they did ultrasound and needle biopsy. Results inconclusive but presumed clear (their phrase not mine, still not sure what it means) so referred back to nhs for surgery. Had lump removed under GA and had to go back 2 weeks later for result. All fine, it was fatty tissue. And breathe....

It is horrendously scary to go through it all, but what gave me comfort was the thought that most women go through it at least once, and the results are almost always normal.

I will keep checking on here to make sure you are ok.

Im another one here to hand hold as well..Obviously not been through what you have BUT I know how scarey it can be to find a lump..

You just have to keep thinking that you have done the right thing in detecting it and you are having it looked into.

Hippi, got it spot on..loads of us going through it at least once BUT the majority of the time its nothing.
Not sure of your background either (sorry) but presume you are quite young..In that I mean under 50..? I know it can happen to ANYONE but you are in a lower risk group..Sorry just trying to sound positive for you..not sure if I am helping. xx

How are you today.?

aww thankyou gals , nice of you to come on and support. Im sorry Itsthawooluf that you are going through the same, I will cat you.

If I have to have it removed I just cant face another surgery right now, only had one 2 weeks ago. Im 34 nearly 35 shh , so just coming into risk group area , thats why they did the biopsy I think.

Im not feeling well today think me and dh may have the virus that the girls have had, feel sick , skins sensitive and aching all over. Could also be exaustion , but dh and I have exact same symptoms. I just want to lay down and sleep.

Have chill radio on in conservatory and me and the girls are just pottering watching my garden deck being built. Its one way to stay sorta calm. Its made me think to just sit with my girls and talk to them and not feel bad about housework , putting clothes away , washing up etc.

aww hugs to you. {{{{}}}}

DD is't feeling well atm so the last 2 days I have spent sat watching postman pat all day..I know what you mean about not doing housework etc. Its nice to have time to sit and reflect.

DD's esp in a clingy mood and its so not her..nice though to get the extra hugs. .

to anyone who has been following my anxious wait , I just posted this on PN thread

Ive just come back from the consultant and I am CLEAR. I still am lumpy in the lady lumps , but they are not sinister and dont need surgery right now. I have an appt in Aug for a check , but hes hoping they will have reduced. If they do however get bigger then surgery may be needed.

I dont even feel relieved yet , I think I got myself soo worked up, Im all shaky and need a whisky !!! or 2 or 3.

Thankyou all those who came on here to shiw support , it truly is a scary time and Im yet to calm down from it all. IM so glad Ive had somewere I can speak with others about it who have gone through the same. MN has been invaluable for this time.

Good luck to those stil waiting to hear. xxx

melsy,just read this....Was going to post a thread for you as couldn't remember your name etc but glad you saved me my blushes.!

So happy for you and hope you are finally relieved and chilled. I have been thinking of you and just happy your worry is at bay. xx