I HATE MYSELF

[BinkyR92]

How on earth did i reach 17 stone??? Im 26 :( .. i have a son in a wheelchair who i am struggling to lift because my own weight. My back is broken.. i dont want sympathy and definately don't deserve any...

F'n depression and anxiety has got me here... gaining weight due to my nerves about leaving the house... i sit in alot eating... food is my comfort... my god damn addiction.. i am so frustrated with myself.

I have also body dysmorphia and i am struggling so bad

Im tired of this life living a struggle. But i keep going for my son. Im ruining my new relationship because i am ashamed of myself. I feel hes gonna leave me like my sons dad did.. how do i fix this? When i struggle with my addiction... when i struggle with myself.

Every morning i wake up and i want a better life.. i tell myself today is the day... its the first thought in the morning and my last at night. Why cant i do it .. im fed up.

If i had 1 wish it would be to be healthy again.. my biggest regret in life is getting to this.. letting myself get so lost

I hate myself so much.

You do deserve sympathy and you have mine.

I'm bulimic so anything I say is probably useless but I try and think of each day as a new opportunity for change. Have you thought about slimming world? People give that great reviews for support and encouragement.

I am changing one aspect a week about my unhealthy relationship with food and although I occasionally have major failures it is helping.

Also, go to the GP and try and get some therapy or just general advice. Your feelings sound exactly the same as mine, it's definitely a mental health issue in my opinion. Hating yourself is silly but is part of the package of an eating disorder which is why you need some professional help.

Hope things improve

Please don’t hate yourself. I don’t have any words of wisdom but like the previous poster said, have you spoken to your GP about how you’re feeling?

By the way, re-posting this in mental health or chat might be better as this part of the board is pretty quiet.

Have you looked into any sort of psychological stuff related to overeating?

I'm not a fan of diets myself as I don't believe they work for many people. They're too restrictive and don't help the underlying causes of overeating.

There are so many books on the subject that hopefully you can find something that resonates with you and helps you to develop a healthier relationship with food and your body.

Personally I like Geneen Roth and Susie Orbach. Both are compassionate and kind. There's no rules or points or guilt.