I’m really disappointed in the nhs, feel that they either panicked me unnecessarily or are giving me a load of bullshit.
My ability to walk has deteriated when this first started I felt as though I could still walk normally although I had acute pain when I moved! I’m not sure how long I had pain in my back for think it is 6 months and what prompted me to go to GP was being unable to bend over and touch my toes In yoga - something I have been doing for 10 years plus.
So this led to the mri scan and the instruction to go to a & e urgently - the outcome of which was to be seen by neurosurgeon in clinic. I did this on 27 July. This date is etched in my mind because I was told out of the 3 options (1 wait and do nothing, 2 have pain relief via injections 3 have surgery) that I needed surgery and this would be within 4 weeks.
I burst into tears at this point - I was not expecting this I thought it would be a case of take some more painkillers and come back in 3 months. I expect this reaction was linked to my breast cancer diagnosis where I thought I was having a second mammogram due to the first being unusable but Infact it was because they had detected something and I needed biopsy there and then - anyway that,s
another story.
As I felt able to walk and that some of the pain had subsided I asked for another MRi scan thinking/ hoping that there had been some improvement. I was told to contact them the day after as depending on this scan they would be making a decision.
The result of this scan was deteriation basically I had got worse in the space of a month! I made the phonecall the next day but was told I could not have been told to call in the next day as results from scans take 2 - 3 weeks. Even the nurse at the scan reminded me to do this as it was obviously I needed my notes. I assumed that as I was already informed that I needed urgent surgery this scan would prompt this happening fairly swiftly. However this appears not to be the case. I was given a 3 month appointment by neurosurgeon and was told this was purely to make sure I did not fall through the system!
So after feeling that I am getting worse - after a noticeable difference in my ability to walk which I can only do very slowly with controlled movement and feeling a sensation of numbness after sitng still for a bit longer than I have normally been able to do and calls direct to the neurosurgery department who are now implying that the appointment at end of October is likely to be the soonest I go back to my Gp Wednesday.
He aggrees that i need to go back to a & e - calls them up and arranges for me to be seen. But as it is before 4pm have to be seen by orthopaedics and not neurosurgery who do a & e after 4pm.
So I have to explain everything all over again I have to try and perform various leg movements for them to assess me. I’m tested ( with a paper clip!!!!) for sensation, I try to explain that although I can do some of the movements the limited range is not normal for me - I do yoga i know my own body. I’m asked why I was not referred to physiotherapy I say it is because I understood i needed urgent surgery and that had I not asked for another mri scan I believe I would have had this by now.
I end up crying again - I’m starting to feel the same old shite that they are not listening to me. So they decide to send me for another mri scan. I have now been sitting around for 4 hours. I am nil by mouth incase they are going to operate. Mri scan is done shows still same as last one but they want to speak with orthopaedic surgeon for a decision who is currently in theatre.
So I’m waiting around pain is getting unbearable I need to lie down but there is nowhere - can’t sit, can’t walk, can’t stand so I’m moving around all over the place and two people ask me if I’m ok as they can obviously see I am struggling, it’s now approaching 5pm and I still have no idea what’s happening. Dr is going off shift - other guy still in surgery - so they take me upstairs to out of hours and Im given a bed in a consulting room. About 6.30 the dr now on shift comes to see me - they are going to review me in their meeting tomorrow - I don’t need urgent urgent surgery as In that night but I may need urgent surgery within a week or two. I now say I was told this 2 months ago and I would have had surgery by now had I not asked for 2nd mri scan. He agrees however I am now being reviewed under orthopaedics and so they will decide. I am still under neurosurgery and so I ask if they will speak to each other - I am told probably. I tell him again how I feel I say about the mri scan again today he tells me the decision is based on my symptoms and not the scan ( what was the point of this then??)! H3 tells me that if I loose bladder/ bowel control to come back to a & e,
I ask again about movement what am I supposed to be doing- he tells me to keep moving and I ask in what capacity - I’ve been told not to lift anything I’ve been told not to twist my back - I tell him I've stopped going to yoga because this involves a lot of back twisting. He says I can’t bend forward ( again yoga) ( incidentally the first dr told me that physio moves are not the same as yoga which I’m not sure about I need to look this up because I seem to recall once before that I had noticed they were pretty much all the same - may be wrong though,) so. I Say I can’t reaaly do much - I can’t lift wet washing, I can’t carry food shopping, I can’t walk the dog, I can’t change the beds, I can’t do ironing or hoovering - I can sit for about 20mins at a time I can’t walk very far but as I Can walk I am ok - I can’t stand still for very long’
By this time I’m getting pretty frustrated I ask them to call me after their meeting! I ask them to speak to neurosurgery both of which he says they will do and he reminds me again to come straight in if I loose any control.
So I have had no phonecall. My understanding of my situation is that as I can currently walk to the toilet when I need to I am not an urgent case for surgery however if I end up pissing or shitting myself then I need to go straight to a & e, in the meantime I can carry on - quite with what I don’t bloody know! I can’t plan anything because I don’t know how I am going to be from one day to the next, I can’t do anything because I can hardly bloody move and if I dose myself up with pain killers so I can move I might scared I could do more harm. I can’t do yoga which has been my sanctuary over the year s but I could have physiotherapy although they have not referred me for this? I’m thinking if I had private insurance ( which I did have prior to my divorce ) I would probably be able to get the surgery done without having to wait.
Meanwhile I am now under two bloody de apartments with slightly different views on this but neither seem so to be in a position to do anything. I currently feel like I am in a situation where when I go blind they will operate on my eyes but by then it will be too bloody late - I am not going to let myself get to the point where i am in nappies and having to use a wheelchair because they decided my situation was not urgent enough. As I was waiting for my scan there was a chap there also waiting - he had had surgery but had numbness in his leg - they were checking him out!
Time to kick some butt I think @cactusplant I understand your frustration - what has helped you the most please?