I can't sleep with worry!

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Guess I just need to get this off my chest, it's been eating me up for weeks!
I've had a lump in my right breast that I noticed a couple of weeks ago. I've left it cause I wasn't sure if it was down to menstruated cycle, the fact I had a baby 5 months ago or what, but my whole breast has been sore since, every day.
Stupidly I went on google and have now convinced myself of the worst and I can't sleep or eat with worry. I'm going to get it checked today, but I can't stop looking at my DD and end up having a mini panic attack that something is going to happen to me! I haven't told anyone about it, cause I don't know what's happening yet. I don't know how to calm myself down!
Guess I just needed to put it down somewhere, I feel like I've had the weight of the world on my shoulders these past weeks, I can't think about anything else!

Are you bf’ing? It could be mastitis, or it could be a cyst. I know it’s hard not to fear the worst but you’re doing the right thing getting it checked.

No I'm not bf'ing, so I know it's not related to that. It's making me ill with worry. This is something that I would have just cracked on with last year, but now I'm a mother, I'm terrified! I'm not old (30) so I try and rationalise things, but I always come back to the same thing! It's worrying me that much I just want to bury my head and act like it's not happening. What a silly way to be thinking.

Go to the doctor today. The phone lines open in 15 minutes.

It could still be related to feeding. SIL had a lump a few months ago & DN is bottle fed so didn't think it was related. She had to go for a mammogram & they found it was a blocked milk duct so try not to fear the worst just yet. Glad your going to get it checked today. Good luck x

Your boobs will still be settling down after childbirth and it is likely to be some sort of blocked duct issue related to that, particularly as your breast has been sore. It is extremely unlikely to be anything more sinister but does need checking out. Most likely you need a course of ABs - you really don't want this developing into an abscess.

Thanks for all your messages. The doctors opens at 8am so I'll be calling for an appointment. Just need to get this done and hope it's nothing bad! 😢 as a new mum, I've just jumped to the worst possible conclusion! Like I said, if it was last year, before my DD I would have just gone and got it looked at and dealt with whatever outcome. Now I'm just scared senseless.

Hi op, did you manage to get an appointment with your gp?

Yes at 10.20

Little update! Have been referred to our breast clinic for an ultrasound, though the doctor thinks I have something called fibroadenoma. The lump moves around under her fingers when she touches on it, so she told me she is more than sure it was nothing sinister. The ultrasound is just to be sure it is what she thinks and she said it was partly to put my mind at ease because of how stressed and anxious I was about it.

That's fab news OP!

I hope you're feeling better about it

Great news op, hope your feeling a bit better