Can't really think of a suitable title to describe the issue but anyway here goes....
Whenever I have had vaginal internals, Smears/coil fitting cyst related issues, I respond in a way that I can't control. My rational head wants to get it done and over with but despite that I just get all light headed and sickly, I've often turned green and been close to fainting. If people talk about periods or pelvic pain, I start feeling that way too. I feel utterly pathetic and am certainly not choosing to respond like this.
I've birthed 2 children, one of whom was 11lb and even had an ovary removed and lots of cysts. I always attend smears and just force myself to get through it. Sometimes I am not that bad and can respond semi normally other times I get really woozy and sick. Behaving like this makes me feel so embarrassed.
Anyway I have a coil that needs removing and it turns out the strings have gone missing. So will be having to see someone who specialises in removing coils where strings have disappeared. I don't know what they do differently and I don't want to know. Even typing this out is making me nauseous.
Is there anyone out there that experiences this and has found a solution? I've thought about hypnotherapy vaguely but I had it years back for insomnia and it didn't work. I can't think of anything else. On my last appointment I took a Valium but I think the feeling of being out of control made it worse.