stupid queston re HIV tests

[poppy34]

I've recently had one of these done as part of a whole set of tests due to gyne problems and I didnt think anything of it when they mentioned they were testing for it (I was pretty freaked out anyway as am not the best with blood tests).

Now I'm pretty wound up anyway about results of these tests (without giving too much away as this isn't my usual name) and have now started obsessing about maybe reason for my problems is due to HIV. I've had no symptoms and have been a very good girl generally except for a couple of instances of unprotected sex about 8/9 years ago when I was young free and single (yes stupid to thin on now). Have no reason to think either my DP or my ex (who I was with for 5 years) have it. Also

my dp had HIV test done due to work issues about 2 years ago which came back negative but we'd only been together for about 3 months at the time so I'm not sure if you can read much into it.

Sorry - I've got myself in a bit of a state about this (mainly cos I'm in a bit of mess mentally for other reasons) and not really found anything helpful in my net trawling so wondering if anyone has any more info.

it should be in by now (test was done 2 weeks ago) -could reschedule but quite tricky gettinga nother appt.

GP ok (when you can see him) but admin at gp awful -they dealyed posting referral which was part of reason for antenatal mix up this time and when had first m/c didnt send the referral to hospital properly until i had to ring them in tears geting them to sort it out so not sure I want to go that route.

Oh god - don't know what to do now

I really, really can't believe that if a positive test result had come in that they wouldn't have told you by now- I would take that as reassurance to be honest.

I would ring them and tell them that you need to speak to your GP as a matter of urgency. You don't need all this additional stress ontop of what you have just been through. Your GP of all people should appreciate that. Then insist on knowing the results.

Oh and I'm with Tamum believing that you would have heard if it was bad news btw.

thanks tamum/allpiggie - will ring gp in the morning although to be honest running the gauntlet of that surgery is the last thing I need. may try ringing hospital instead - could try the nice specialist midwife I had.

That's a good idea, ringing the midwife. I bet we're right and you'll get some reassurance.

oh yes, the midwife sounds like a good plan.

think I will - when I spoke to her late last week she was going on about not worrying about getting my appt with the doctor. She is really experienced as a bereavement counseller (has been right so far about what I'd feel physically and emotionally) so wonder if this test obssession maybe a stage of grief?

sounds perfectly possible poppy - she sounds lovely and I hope she can offer you some insight into this tomorrow.

I think it would be surprising if you weren't finding something to worry about, so it could well be a stage of grief, or simple anxiety focusing on something. I hope you get the answer tomorrow.

have been alternatiing between weeping and wondering if i'l ever feel ok again, being angry and worried- think there all pretty normal stages of grief so going madlady test obsessive probably all part of it.

on the plus side -its the apprentice tonight.. wonder how I can persuade dh that he is interested in football

Any chance you could settle down to the Apprentice with a glass of wine and some chocolate? You've been through such a lot, give yourself a break- it's reasonable to worry.

probably every chance - we've got wine adn chocolate and dh lovely (and secretly probably more interested in seeing alan rip those losers apart).

Just hate fact that I'm normally little ms together and when something like this happens you're all over the shop. Tbh thought I was pretty tough but not so sure now.

I'm not sure you could be tough about this and still be human really. Have a nice evening if you can

Thanks tamum -feeling a little better (dh back ina minute so I'll have some company).

dunno what I'd do wihout mn !

Hope you enjoyed it poppy, and good luck with the phone call.
xx