Had enough

[FluffyPinkCloud]

Ok so this will probably be really outing but I don’t know where else to go. I have fibromyalgia, hemiplegic migraines and I’m really bloody struggling with my mental health issues.
Every day is a battle, I’m struggling to find the positives in my day let alone get my MH under control. I’m young, but my dr says I have the body of a 90 year old. I can’t cope being in constant pain, if I’m not in pain I’m paralysed due to the migraines. At least once a week i’m in hospital due to them. it’s normal for my kids to see the ambulance here, how do i cope? How do i carry on? I’ve told my dr how suicidal I’m feeling but nobody can do anything to help me. It helps to vent here, but life is so so difficult at the moment. Sorry for the ramblings.

@fluffypinkcloud
I have not been in your position but imagining it. From your message, you say you are feeling suicidal but i am guessing that you really want to have a way to either cure or cope with your conditions and stop the frequent suffering?
I do not like the sound of your doctor... the mind-body connection is so important and he/ she is saying you have the body of a 90 year old - very negative message (although there are some 90 year olds sho can run further than me! Maybe that is who she/ he meant?) 1st thing i suggest is that you say 10 times each morning out loud 'every day i am getting healthier and healthier'.
I highly recommend hypnotherapy for the pain. Your mind has the ability and gift to switch focus away from any of the billions of signals it receives, so there is definitely hope
Finally, well done for asking for help, as some people try to struggle in by themselves (especially parents). Sending lots of love xxx

@raysan1
Thank you for your reply.

I hear you and I understand. I have diagnosis of endometriosis, ME and fibromyalgia but I’m convinced the latter two are incorrect and I actually have a thyroid problem. I’ve been paying for private blood tests to try and figure things out, since once you have a diagnosis of fibro it’s very hard to get any doctor to consider there might be something else going on. I know how hard it is to fight when you feel like this. Do you feel they’ve investigated properly? Have they tried you with any / many medications to help with your pain? Are they doing anything at all beyond shrugging their shoulders at you?

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I can relate to you at the moment. I’m waiting for an operation to remove endo from my bowel etc...
I have pain daily and have contemplated suicide many times. I really do feel like giving up and that’s somethinb I feel like doing everyday.
I wish I could give you a more positive/encouraging story but know you’re not alone xx