I'm miserable

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I'm miserable. I am constantly unwell. I feel like this year I've been ill non stop.

I do have anxiety issues, and have had infections and bugs and then had a seizure last week which has left me feeling unstable and very very sore. I can barely walk, feel like crap and just generally am very very miserable.

I have taken time off work and I'm due back on Monday, but I honestly think I won't cope if I still feel this bad.

I just feel for being in my early 20s, I should be happier and doing fun things and actually doing well in my career, whereas I feel like I'm on the verge of being fired and just generally feel horrific. I think I'm not a fun person to be around and honestly can't understand why I even have any friends at this stage

I'm sorry you feel like that would you abandon your friends if they were in a similar situation? Hopefully not! :)

Have they found a cause for the seizure? That must have been terrifying.

I guess i wouldn't but I just feel it can't be that enjoyable for them and they are amazing people.

Not yet found a cause! I would love to know to be honest - I've been to the doctors twice since it happened and I'm going to have to go back to get signed off for a further week or ask for painkillers, I feel like a general pest :/ I don't really want to ask for painkillers in case they think I'm some sort of drug chaser but to be honest I cannot function at all.

Sorry for the moan! Hope you're well xxx

I know that feeling. I also need strong painkillers at the moment and I felt so awkward asking for them! Though as soon as I mentioned pain the GP was really helpful in suggesting medications and has been quite generous. They don't want people to suffer :)

I hope you get some answers soon about the seizure

Thing is I was there the other day about the pain and was told just stick with paracetamol and ibuprofen :/ but it's not touching it and I can't even sleep - would it be unacceptable to go back or even phone them and ask for an alternative?

I'm just aware I will no way be able to work in this pain

No that wouldn't be unacceptable at all. You've given it a chance but it's not working for you so you need something else. I really sympathise. Pain just takes over doesn't it and you can't even think straight, let alone work!

Thank you so much for replying to me. I hope you're okay xxx

My only advice is do not give up, do not give up finding answers from the GP and do not give up on happiness. I have a life long illness (Crohns) and I never gave up with my GP, I kept going back and they had no choice but to listen. Happiness is harder if you are constantly suffering but it can be done! Good luck!

Have you had a chance to ask for better pain relief? I hope they were helpful if so and I hope you get some answers soon too