I ignored the letter for months and GP surgery rang and persuaded me to book one and now I am dreading it!
Since I had my children (in early teens now) the pain has been excruciating. Not just uncomfortable as before, but extremely painful. Felt like I was going to pass out last time. I told her she had to stop and she said that she was almost there. So rather than go through it all again I let her carry on. Felt violated and sore for days. Vowed never to have another.
I'm in my early fifties and find I am very tight down there which I understand is usual after the menopause. I have not been sexually active since my last smear test so do I need to be re-tested?
I have since changed GP surgery. I have no idea what the new nurse will be like. I want to be able to talk to her before hand and explain, but they just seem to want you in and out. I read you can get smaller speculums these days. Can I ask for one? What if she doesn't have one on the day?
I am so close to cancelling. Just the thought is making me feel physically sick.