im having one of those times again

[nightowl]

when everything just seems hopeless. still want to see dd's daddy, my friend is slipping away from me, ive lost my job and its all sinking in now. i feel like rubbish and sometimes dont feel like getting up at all in the morning. im trying to ignore it all but sometimes i just want to sit and cry until it all goes away. i dont do "why me" but im getting like that again. im lonely.

hi nightowl. sorry you are feeling so low. one thing i wonder - are you sleeping OK? don't know about your circs with dd's daddy - do you have any contact with him at all? You sound like you have loads on your plate - losing your job and your relationship with your ex - anyone would find that really hard to deal with, along with bringing up dd. from the sound of it, you sound like you could be a bit depressed - have you been to the docs at all to see if counselling/ADs might help. Also do you have the chance to get a break from your lo at all. With your friend, is it the case tht he/she is childless so just doesn't get what it is like?

take care

i have had loads happen but its nothing recent.....i think its all just coming to the surface again. dd's daddy wont see her and denies she is his, no i dont sleep and already on ad's ish...i was fine for months...and i miss work and the people there that i thought were friends. my friend has kids but has got a new fella and has drifted off now after us sticking together after we were both left pg on our own....its all rubbish.

hugs nightowl. sometimes if you have loads of stressful things happen you are OK at the time, and its later down the line that you start to feel stressed out - sort of at first you just concentrate on getting thru everything so you just get by on adrenaline almost, and only later when you have had time to think that you start feeling bad. With DD's daddy - are you going down the CSA/DNA test route? With the ads - sometimes they can cause insomnia - were you like that before ads - if you are still feeling bad on ads you could change to a different one or increase the dose - is your GP ok to talk to about that sort of thing? With work, would you be able to look for a new job, or would it be too difficult/not cost effective enough to find a new job.

am knackered and off to bed - hope there are some of the us mners around to chat to you till you are ready to go to bed.

take care

Nightowl, I'm really sorry you are going through this, and I think the fact that you are missing your friend may be contributing to bring all the other subjects back to the surface. It's bit late now, but I didn't wanted to go to sleep before telling you that I really admire you, you are a very strong person who has gone though very big problems and survived. Things are looking grim at the moment but I'm sure you have what it takes to go through them. {{{{hugs{}}}}

Chandra

how are you today Nightowl?

i feel rubbish really. wish i could say i felt better but i dont. every time i try to contact dd's daddy i come up against a brick wall. no-one will let me speak to him and he wont phone me. im going through hell at the mo and no-one will help. hes the major reason why im feeling like this....he just will not even discuss things with me like an adult let alone see his daughter. if it had of been a one night stand then i would know why he's doing this but it wasnt. i cant bear it, it gets harder every day

hi nightowl - sorry you have not been having a better day. I think you have to stop trying to contact ex p as it is just making you feel so low, but just let things take their course thru CSA etc. Some guys just get freaked out by the responsibility of having freedom and are just too selfish to give support. Which is crap, but there is nothing you can do about that, but just accept that if that is his attitude he is losing out in the end. do u think that the ads have helped at all - u could change to different ones, or put your dose up?