for a mum to be really apprehensive about child becoming ill
which means:
too worried to book a holiday abroad, in case ill and no english doctor etc
feel jittery and apprehensive to leave child with grandparents..just in case
take child to doctor when ill but then worry that either the doctor has got it wrong or it will develop into something serious. and then not sleep all night.
feel a sinking feeling when dh announces he is going out drinking, as, won't be able to drive car or give his input should child become ill. and then worry about it until said night out has been and gone.
touch forehead of sleeping child every night to check for fever. child is 8 year old.
walk down the street and notice someone look at you and legs turn jelly almost making it feel like your walking funny.
blush like a beetroot when talking to the teacher, the doctor, anyone not completely familiar with.
to want to learn to drive, take dancing lessons, go to college but never take the plunge because of self doubt.
to have sudden flashes of dh or family in car crashes. usually if heard something about traffic or whatever on radio.
to still have a baby monitor.
to have never let child eat nuts as allergic to dogs and grass really badly so don't wanna chance it.