Hi,
(I've name changed for this)
I'm not sure what to do - well I probably need to go to the doctor (again) but I'm not sure they will be able to help to be honest.
I'm worried about my weight. I look terrible. I have always been thin (not in a good way - this isn't a bragging post) and I have had countless comments over the years telling me so and that I need to put weight on.
My mum came round to visit today and remarked that I look too thin (as she often does) and she's right I look thinner than ever - painfully thin. I'm about 5 foot 4 and normally weigh around 7st 2/3. I haven't weighed myself tonight because I'm worried I've lost weight. I could really do with putting a stone on and being able to maintain a healthy weight.
Over the years I have tried to put weight on - (I eat junk, drink full fat milk, eating cheese etc). I have been to the doctor in the past and they told me that as long as I eat enough then there is nothing to worry about but I'm not buying this because I don't look well at all. I have dark circles under my eyes and my face looks drawn. Today at one point I felt like I was going to pass out. I used to have heart palpatations but these stopped a couple of years ago.
I am a very anxious person and I think it might be partly down to this. Im always worried about something. At the moment I am worried about work because there is a lot of uncertainty in my department and I feel totally unprepared should I ever need to find another job. I actually woke up in the middle of the night having a panic attack a few weeks ago because of this. I'm also worried about my dad who has health issues and I have problems with my in-laws which is causing a lot of grief. I do not want to discuss my anxiety with my doctor because I don't want it being noted on my medical records.
Has anyone else been through this - can you advise? Its really starting to get me down to be honest and I just don't know what to do.