Does anyone else just sometimes feel like walking away [sad]

[MadAsABoxOfFrogs]

I'm not sure where to put this but as its regarding my health thought best here.

To cut a long story short, i have been feeling so low lately yesterday i was ready to not come home and just leave dp and 2ds's I am always so nervous about everything:
driving my car- i'm convinced i'm going to crash
staying in the house on my own - am always afraid someone will break in
in bed at night - afraid that someone will break in and hurt my children
even a trip in asda - if i see someone that look supspicous i will leave in case they try to rob the shop
I wont even go to a bank
I know this all sounds like i'm a loon but i can't cope with being like this anymore.
I don't have any energy to play with my ds's and feel like they would be so much better off w/out me
I have booked a doctors appointment today at 10 but i have no idea what to say to him in case he gets social services involved, and i will prob end up there givin a complete lie as to why i am there.
Please someone tell me that this will get better and i'm not on my own

You've done so well in getting to the doctor and taking those important steps to making a difference in your life . As you've said, youwant to do somthing about it, and you have. Try the tablets, get as much help as you can from HV, try the counselling, get some books if you think that would help... and don't forget to keepp talking, whether it's to your family, on here or a helpline (don't forget you can call the Samaritans any time you want to talk and they wil listen).

Congratulations of taking charge of the situation and best wishes for the future

and if the tablets aren't having the right effect in a couple of weeks, or the side effects prove to be a problem (you mnight not suffer from them, everyone is different), go back to your GP cos there are lots of different ADs and you can try different combinations till you hit on something that works. Think of this as the first step in a journey

Meant to say, other than being hungry all the time, I have never suffered any side effects when starting the tablets. But if I stop taking them without gradually reducing dose then I get the headaches and dizzyness (although some would say I am pretty dizzy most of the time anyway ).

that's a good point, have had friends who've had really bad side effects from stopping rather than taking ADs.

I was scared to death of all the side effects, but I haven't had any at all. You might be one of the lucky ones too. Well done for going to the GP. That step is one of the hardest. You're on the road to feeling better. Take care

MadAsABoxOfFrogs I have felt as bad as you have and am quite certainly in a similar situation support wise, my parents are deceased and my dp's parents live in another country, close friends dont have children so dont get it.

I did go to my GP but i wussed out and played it all down, however admitting I had a problem helped me, I improved a little, I dont get quite so low these days but still worry negatively about things that could happen to me or my 2 dd's, I feel like its in my head so often that I'm willing something to happen, its awful but i think to an extent common amongst mothers.

Take each day as it comes hun and good luck.

Dad12, You sound like a star, with all my heart I wish my dp could register just one page from your book.

MadAsABoxOfFrogs - did you actually admit to dr that you drink every night?
would worry me that they would think arent capable of looking after children (this is me not you)

hi hope you had a good nights sleep hug