dd was refusing feeds all day and ended the afternoon screaming and screaming in what appeared to be some considerable pain. she just could not be pacified. this had gone on for hours. my friend heard it on the other end of the phone and agreed she would be worried aswell. i phoned the out of hours doctors number and they asked me to take her to the clinic. they then said our local one was closed. (the second time they've done this) and could i take her to one 15-20 miles away. i said no, i cant drive and have no transport. so then she gets a nurse to ring me back. the nurse said the same and again i told her why i couldnt get to the clinic so she said reception would ring me back to arrange a home visit. reception rang me back and after asking if i could get to the clinic again, they then said a doctor would be with me within the hour. some time later the doctor rang me, said he would like to see her and could i get to the clinic? i told him no, he said our local one was open...then oh no it wasnt but theres another one close...oh no, thats closed aswell. just keep an eye on her tonight. i was in tears by this point. i phoned nhs direct and sought their opinion, the nurse told me that i HAD to get my daughter seen and could i get to the clinic. i practically wailed that i couldnt and she basically was very severe with me and told me that i should catch a taxi, that it was important and it was my responsibility, and that home visits were not carried out anymore. whilst still on the line i became worried about dd's breathing. she looked awful. so the nurse called for an ambulance. we were took straight to our local a & e, dd was checked for breathing and we then had a two hour wait, by which time she was fine, if a little bored. the a & e dept was rammed full of people and i couldnt help but wonder how many of them were not really ill enough to be there, but like us, just could not get to see a doctor? i think this is disgusting. is it just me? is it now like this everywhere?