Hi everyone, thank you all so much. I'm overwhelmed at the amount of suggestions, and it's so nice that everyone takes it so seriously. Once a psychotherapist said to me "and why do you feel that sleep is important to you?" and I was like "erm because I'm pretty sure you need it to stay alive??". So just to answer some questions:
allthekings - that's brilliant you're converted, always nice to hear. I'm probably not outside enough due to sitting at a desk all day, although i do walk an hour everyday for the commute.
branleuse- melatonin - I was taking double the recommended dose on the bottle for about a year (no effect), then sleep clinic told me I should stop, as there's no scientific evidence to back it up
queenofwhatever- sleep restriction, getting out of bed, tried this for a few months, and just found I was in and out of the bed all night as I don't really get drowsy until about 5am. The sleep clinic recommended this too, but then when it wasn't working for me, I saw a different private specialist, who said this was the opposite of what I should be doing, and at least if i stay in bed i will get rest.
showergel and bonestripped- audiobooks/bbc documentaries - yes I use those. They make the night more enjoyable, not as boring, but I'll get through whole books/documentaries and still be awake, but yes still better than staring at the ceiling.
taytopotato sleep apnea, no it's not that I'm afraid, as I think you actually fall asleep with that and keep waking up, but I'm not actually falling asleep.
abc I watched that documentary where they mentioned prebiotics -i must actually give that a go.
cheesygiraffe that's a very good point, i get home from work around 7.30pm, make dinner, eat about 8, or sometimes go to the gym, meet friends- maybe i need to do less
grasspigeons yeah i try to go to bed as late as possible, not great for my relationship but what can you do
loveday I'm 36 and hopefully a while off the menapause, although i have looked into whether it's hormone related, as always worse with pms - all hormones came back normal
ljkk - I don't drink caffeine -used to use it as a crutch to get me through the day, but that made my sleep even worse, so don;t drink it at all now. Exercise - an hour walking a day (midweek), but I know I should be doing a lot more 'cardio' type to tire me out, vicious circle to get the energy to do that, but I know deep down it will help. I suppose i alternate between bored and fretting on different nights. sleep hygiene - yeah dark, cool, quiet room etc.
So new things to try:
- more exercise (esp outdoors)
- prebiotics
- possibly anti-depressent medication (although ttc at the moment, so will need to check)