they think my mum has cancer...

[KittyLetteMeEatAnEasterEgg]

i felt sick writing that

she had a growth on her head, they removed it, it grew back 10x worse.

she had it removed again and sent away, she had an appointment this morning at the doctors for the results.

she said they dont know (??!?) if it is cancer or not, but im pretty sure it is judging by her face (she had obviously been crying) i think she tried to soften it as at first everything was ok, and then bits leaked out over the next few hours about going back in 3 weeks and if theres any regrowth she has to start treatment

im dumbstruck

i kept asking what 'treatment' was - i know what it is but i wanted to hear it so i could accept it iykwim, but she wouldnt say,

i am sooo scared for my mummy

maybe its not, maybe it will be fine

but judging by the fact she has to keep going back to check its not growing back , that doesnt sound good does it?

i mean how can they NOT KNOW if its cancer or not? she was saying words but i was just numb, i dont know what they meant

i just want this to go away

i dont even want to think about 3 weeks sown the line , i dont know what to do

kitty x

And Kitty you are not selfish. It makes no difffernce to you if others have experienced this, you are experiencing this now, it is a whole new area of emotion to deal with. Be as 'selfish' as you need to be.

thankyou pavlov xxx

So sorry to hear your news, your Mum may have a lot of treatment ahead, but the outcome could well be very good, so try to stay positive.

kitty I'm so sorry you're going through this

don't really know what useful thing to write, but my mum was diagnosed with advanced ovarian cancer completely out of the blue very recently, and the first couple of weeks were just absolute hell.

You're not alone in this. Thinking of you and your mum.

im so sorry to hear that geekgrrl, how is she?

how are you?

she okish - she's on her third round of chemo now and is finally feeling a bit perkier. She sounds a lot better now than she did 4 weeks ago (cancer was found at the end of January) - she lives in Germany and we talk on the phone every day.
I think she feels a lot more positive now. At first she was very frightened and upset.
And she really misses her work.

As for me - I'm ok now. It's just become this sh*tty thing that's in the back (and often the front) of my mind all the time IYKWIM.
It was really awful at first though. Felt like I'd been dumped into a nightmare from which there was no escape.

Any news from your mum yet?

wow it happens fast then, 3 rounds since end of jan?

my mums gone to work today - i didnt think she would, but shes so strong.

stronger than me.

mind you i think id cope better if it were me rather than someone else i love, iykwim

it must be so difficult her being so far away

your mum i mean, being in germany,

are you planning on visiting?

Sorry to hear your news.

My friend was diagnosed with breast cnacer just before Xmas, though she was luckier as she hadtheresulltsbcakwithin 5 dyas.

They have started chemoas soon as she recovered from the surgery, and they have kept her well informed throughout. We couldn't believe how quickly the treatment started.

i hope it al turns out okay.

hi yes, it is crappy being so far away. Particularly when she's had rubbish days and cries on the phone and says stuff like that she's going to die etc. I find that really hard. Thankfully those days seem to be over now.
We're all off to see my parents over Easter though so that'll be good. I also went by myself two weeks after she was admitted to hospital, just for a long weekend.

It all went really quickly with her - she went to see her GP one Tuesday after work because she had had an upset stomach that just wouldn't settle, was admitted to hospital that evening, tests done etc over the next few days and surgery on the Monday, chemo started a week after surgery. They certainly didn't mess about.

thats awful geekgrrl, you mustve felt so powerless to help,

i think im having a breakdown, im not doing well at all

i havent gotten the boys dressed today , i cant concentrate, i have no patience,

i dont want to do anything and i cant stop crying, i havent stopped all day.

my head is killing me, i just want to go to bed and lie down and sleep

obviously the 2 babies arent going to allow that,

i feel like im being stupid, but shes my mammy, i cant do anything without her, im so scared something bad will happen

shes my only friend - everything revolves around her, i see her everyday,

i hope im freaking over nothing, god knows what im gonna be like if my fears are confirmed

i want to curl up and sleep

kitty - go and see your GP and get something to help you stay calm.
Honestly, I wish I had. Sounds like you're handling it just as badly as I did.
so sorry xx

for you all

no ill be ok, i just need a few days to get myself together,

xxx

just wanted to add im feeling much better today

my mum isnt going to wor so im going round to her house.

she came round last night and i found it very hard to say goodbye (and when she first arrived i couldnt look at her directly )

but definatly feeling more positive today

only just saw this - glad you're feeling better kitty
x

geekgrrl, she told me last night it is skin cancer,

if you have the time could you email me?

i havent really got anyone i can talk to and i get the impression people are getting bored of me posting about it on here, but i need to vent

if you havent the time dont worry,

kitty

[email protected]

xxx

I am sure people aren't getting bored of you, it is a nice weekend, people will be out

I am sure people will post soon

I am so sorry to hear about your Mum

kitty, sorry to hear your news
will email you later (am on dh's pc at the moment)
don't think people are bored of you! I think a lot of people don't know what to say.
When I posted on here at first about my mum, the posters who had experience of ovarian cancer were v. reluctant to reply to me (with it being such a shitty cancer).

Kitty I know exactly what you are going through my dad and my mum were both diagnosed with different cancers at roughly the same time my world crashed I remember crying alot and the not being able to say goodbye and when ever I saw them I just wanted to cry but held it together. My mums is doing gereat now and my dad starts his thrid round of treatments in April. People arent getting board of you please dont think like that its just a really hard subject for some people.

Oh, sweetheart

Post away - anybody tells you off for posting about this on here and they'll feel the full force of my wrath.

What now? Is she having treatment?

OH kitty
sorry to hear your news
I do so hope your mum is ok
thinking of you
x

Kitty, sorry to hear your news. On the positive side skin cancer is very curable, in most cases the affected area can be removed without the need for further treatment. My uncle was diagnosed with skin cancer in November and he is currently on the waiting list to have the area on his nose removed. The doctors are not overly concerned. I hope you get some positive news soon.

I think the plan of action is that as its already been removed then thats that! they said the root, surrounding area was removed and now they just have to check it for regrowth in 3 weeks time.

thanks for the support

Positive thoughts coming from here to you and your mum kitty.

Hoping very much for a good outcome for her.

Take care.