I have had a distinct change in my bowel habits since before Christmas. I have also put on a good stone in that time too. My tummy is so so sore and so bloated, I really do look pregnant. I feel exhausted nearly all the time and whilst out with my DD on Saturday, she was horrified that I was out of breath whilst walking around the shops with her.
The GP examined my tummy but said she could not find any masses and made me an appointment for a colonoscopy which is tomorrow. She said it was to rule out bowel cancer first.
If that test shows nothing, then the next stage is to have an ultra scan for ovarian cancer.
If that test is negative, then she will order a test for ulcers.
She really is a brilliant doctor and is moving with all the speed she can.
I made a silly decision today not to drink alcohol and to give up smoking as that might help me feel better. Well I have crumbled and bought a packet of cigarettes and half a bottle of Bacardi. I think once all my tests are out of the way, I will try again.
I am telling myself not to be silly, that there is no point in worrying when I don't know what it is. All I know is that I feel like shite and I want to cry and I want a cuddle from someone but there is no one here, I live on my own and I don't feel I can ring my parents up and worry them sick and my DD would be hysterical so I have not told her.
My sister is dropping me off at the hospital tomorrow, I had to tell her about the colonoscopy as I can't drive myself back afterwards. I have not told her my worries as she has her own health problems and she can't cope with stress.
Cheer me up and send lots of wine please 