I'm in a panic. Last week, I was told I needed surgery for removal of ovaries, and, depending what is found, a hysterectomy. I've had a cyst for a while and recent ultrasound, MRI and ct show a mass that does not have characteristics of either just a cyst or endometrioma (which I had before, 12 years ago), or a typical cancer. However, I have a high CA125 reading, 270, which they think unusual if just endometriosis as I'm 53 and not had a period for over a year. I think they think its cancerous. The ct scan also showed what they described as a lump of fat over my heart. The gynae oncologist said she'd refer to colleagues but wasn't too bothered by it. Now I'm due to have surgery this Friday. This morning, I got a call to ask me to go in to see a lung consultant re the 'lump of fat' on Thursday after a 'multidisciplinary meeting when my case will be discussed Wednesday afternoon. I am terrified that it's a secondary cancer and the ovarian cancer has spread. I've asked for the consultant to phone me before Thursday as otherwise I won't sleep. I've two young children, 11 and 9. I've always been fit and healthy and suddenly Im terrified I'm going to leave my children without a mum. I don't really know why Im posting this. Just in the hope that maybe someone can put some perspective on it.....