I noticed a lump in my breast and went to the dr. Yesterday I had a scan, they said it's definitely not a cyst and they aren't sure what it is at this point. Maybe a fibroadanoma, but it needs investigating and they took two core biopsies of the mass which is about 3cm big.
I've got to wait until next Monday afternoon to get my results and I am feeling so many emotions.
I'm only 31 and I have a 10 month old and a 3 year old and I'm currently on maternity leave. What if I have a really aggressive form of cancer and I'm given 3 months or something similarly terrifying. I can't bear the thought of not being there for my children or seeing them grow up. I know this is the drastic worst case scenario but I can't help but contemplate it.
Then I think I should just forget about it and get on with my week bit could be nothing. But I have an awful feeling it is something bad. Here's no history of BC in my family but I know that doesn't necessarily mean I won't have it.
My dad was diagnosed with cancer 2 years ago. Thankfully it was treated and he is practically back to normal now. My very close friend got diagnosed with terminal brain cancer 3 years ago and she doesn't know how long she has. She has already surpassed expectations.
So I know these tragic diagnoses do happen and there is absolutely no reason why it can't happen to me.
And I'm really scared. There's nothing anyone can say to me other than let's wait and see. My family know and my husband and I feel like I shouldn't talk to them about how I'm feeling because nobody knows what the results will be, and we have just been through all of this (with far greater emotional upset) with my poor dad.
I keep googling breast core biopsies and it seems most results are cancer of some description.
Has anybody had one that turned out not to be cancer? I don't know why I'm posting this actually, I just a need to get out what I am feeling even though nobody can help me at the moment.
I keep looking at my babies and it is unbearable.