Breast pain with lump, referred for scan. So scared

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There's another thread about exactly the same but I didn't want to hijack that one obviously. Just got back from GP and I've been given choose and book info for urgent scan. I've made appointment for 6th Dec.

I've had pain and heaviness in my right breast for about a month and the pain goes through into my shoulder blades. I'm 56 and have been on HRT for 3 years which I know increases the risk of breast/ovarian cancers. There's no history in my family which is good and I don't smoke, drink etc but I'm so bloody frightened.

I daredn't tell anyone in RL and don't want to till I know what's what. My DD in particular would be panicked if I told her.

I've booked to stay with family in Germany over Christmas and daredn't think what my travel insurance will be if I declare the part about upcoming tests and investigations. I've got nothing to do today (apart from some housework) and can't distract myself. Sorry, but just needed to tell someone how scared I am.

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I don't have any first-hand experience but didn't want your post to go unanswered. There's no point telling yourself not to worry before the scan because you will, so be kind to yourself and allow yourself to have whatever feelings you do. Is there someone you can speak to about this in person?

I'm sorry I've just re-read your post and you say you daren't tell anyone in real life. But could there be one friend that you trust? That you can talk these feelings over with, regardless of knowing the outcome of the scan yet? Fingers crossed for you.

Thanks Tatlerer I have friends I can trust but they're going through shit stuff themselves (one has had breast cancer in the past) and I just don't want to worry them. Well, not till I know what's what anyhow. One friend has just had an emergency admission to hospital. She is home now but getting over it. I just can't add any more stress to my close friends' lives at the moment. It doesn't seem fair.