Not going now, but yesterday pain was so bad, as was the feeling of having to lie down with closed eyes to avoid vomiting. Was also really shaky/having chills and feeling I needed to be wrapped in a duvet despite being hot to the touch. Abdomen swollen lump of pain, have to lower myself down gingerly when I sit down or it feels like there's a spear going through me. Ended up phoning 111 beggin them to make the pain stop.

Have Diclofenac 50mg, 3 a day, as painkillers prescribed by gynae. Had a laparoscopy that confirmed and removed endo 18 months ago, awaiting another one. This made no difference to the pain (Although did help with related bowel issues as endo on bowel). Had to get painkillers from gynae as GP will only offer "standard" meds, like mefanaemic acid, tranexamic acid, which have made no difference to me, or hormonal birth control which makes me suicidally depressed (already have MH issus so have to be really careful about this). Btw gynae believes me on this but GPs act like I'm making it up! Used to use codeine but it stopped working (only used 1-2 days a month so surpised if this is tolerance building up.)
In short, I want effective pain relief, and can't seem to get it. I'm torn between feeling like I'm making a fuss, and feeling angry that I can be crippled with pain, vomiting, dizzy and shaky, feeling like I'm dying, and yet am expected to just get on with it! If I had a job now I'd get fired fro needing 1-2 days off a month - this is really concerning me. I'll be struggling in min wage jobs, if I can find a job at all after being off for so long (for MH) - I need to get pain relief sorted so I can work when the time comes.
I wondered about going to A&E next time in the hope that they take the pain seriously. The thought of getting there in a taxi and sitting in the waiting room for hours is horrific, but at least they'll see how bad it is, iyswim.
I don't know...
ps. sorry if moany, quite weepy right now