I have long suspected that all is not right "upstairs" with me, I'm not stupid or anything but I know I act oddly sometimes, to me it's just funny, others find it wierd and childish and I can see why but I still find it funny. I've read up on it and some of my behaviour when I look back at it seems to indicate bi-polar?
I worry over very silly things, I become all wound up and stressed about simple things like getting a different bus for the first time or going somewhere where I don't know the route 100%. I tend to avoid social situations as best as I can, I only have 1 friend and I often make excuses not to see her.
I constantly feel annoyed and angry, often about petty things that happened years ago such as me getting the blame for breaking something as a child when it wasn't me, I feel angry that I was picked on at school and I blame my mum for not dressing me in the right clothes, now I have an obsession with my own kids clothes that they always have to be "the best", I'm not a snob but I worry that if I dont buy their clothes from certain places they will be bullied and end up as "losers" when they're adults (reading it back it sounds ridiculous I know).
I don't sleep very well, when I do go to bed (usually around 1am) I daydream myself to sleep re-living a stupid dream that I had as a teenager...
I also have an obsession with violence, domestic violence inparticular, I have no idea why and I know how awful that is, especially if anyone reads this that has suffered (I am sorry ) I KNOW this is not normal.
So, I thought it was about time I got myself sorted, or at least looked into. I have an idea that this could all be down to abuse I suffered as a child but I don't know, its the only thing I can think of that has maybe made me go a bit loopy.
So, what exactly do you say to a doctor to the effect of "please can I see a shrink? I'm going mad... thanks "
Has anyone done this? a new doctor has started at the surgery, a female who is a very "lovey grandma" type (but younger!) and I would feel easier talking to her than the other male doctors.
Please help, also if you have any idea of the other symptoms I'd love to hear it