Bloody hell. I'm in a mess and it's all my own stupid fault.
I'm 45 and in good health other than being very overweight. I have a lot of body conscious / self esteem issues because of my weight.
Anyway, I normally don't struggle with periods. They've been regular and alternate between light and heavier flows. I came on yesterday which was several weeks overdue. It was a pretty heavy flow and I wore a tampon and pad to bed but leaked - not too badly. I went to bed very late with intention of getting up early as I sensed I would need to change. I've never had to do this before.
This morning, I'd changed tampon an hour earlier and I got a sense I needed to change again but I didn't realise it was going to be urgent. I stood up to go in there and all of a sudden it just poured out of me. I shouted to my DH to bring a towel and I felt my body expel the tampon and a huge clot - it was like a contraction. It was about 2 tablespoons worth of clot. There was lots of unclotted blood just pouring from me too. I was so upset as it happened over our new sofa and cream carpet. I got to the loo and had to sit there for a bit while it dripped out of me. I showered and then an hour later I felt it happening again. I got to the loo that time but again it felt like a contraction expelling a large clot. It's slowed down now but I have period pain. Is this possibly I'm starting the menopause? I'm definitely not pregnant.
The reason I'm so cross with myself is that about 10 years ago I had to have some treatment for early cervical changes on a smear. It was very uncomfortable and I had a lot of bleeding when I had treatment or subsequent smears. I went for a smear some years ago but I bled and the result was unclear. Same happened again and it got to the point that I couldn't bear to go back. What if this episode today is related to a cervical problem? It's my own fault for not going back.
I had a mirena put in some years ago too. It should have been removed by now but again because of my body conscious issues and the discomfort I have on smears I haven't been to get it sorted out. What if this has caused a problem? What if it's got lost or embedded in me?
I could kick myself. Has anyone else experienced problems like this? Be gentle with me. It can be brutal on here and I don't need a lecture! I'm expecting that from the GP when I go. Sorry for the long post.