This is going to sound daft but every year i dread xmas because the week before i develop a phobia/fear of getting ill over xmas and having it spoilt.I know it doesn't sound like much of a problem but i really do get really anxious about it so much so that i have to try and pretend that it isn't really xmas so that i wont get ill...see i told you it was daft.I feel myself getting more and more anxious and panicky this week and im worried as im working xmas day(not through choice)and i would have to go in regardless of being ill.I have been ill over xmas many times so i suppose it stems from that.Because i worry about it i fear that im wishing it on myself.I know that getting stressed over it makes me more susceptable to catching something so im locked in a vicious circle really.I get so anxious that i start to imagine that people who serve me or pass me in shops are infecting me
And yes this morning i woke up with a sore throat.
Now feel free to call the men in white coats.
Damn it ,i should of name changed,please be gentle with me.