Hi all I'm a regular poster. Usually regarding the struggles of being a lone parent with no support. Feel I have to reach out to all my MN help as also suffering from health anxieties.
Got my DS poorly this week with bad tonsillitis so that's not helping. Basically I am convinced I can feel a hard lump to the right side of my back. I'm scared of doctors ....... Quite a heavy drinker if I'm honest ...... I drink as it numbs things. It doesn't interfere with daily life or anything but I do drink over the recommended units per week. Please dont judge me for that it's really lonely sometimes. Anyway stupidly googling symptoms and convinced myself I'm dying so now in a right state. Last year was diagnosed with an ovarian cyst which I've not been discharged from gynae with as consultant said it was a fluid filled 'nothing to worry about' one. Boy did I get in a panic over that so the thought of going again with this lump is terrifying me. I've convinced myself I've got a l tumour on my liver snd I'm dying. It's such a horrible state to be in I literally have nobody here apart from my DS who is poorly I have been cooped up in the house the past 2 days. Please help anyone.........