Hey
I've been trying not to admit mine is as bad as it is, but surround yourself with pillows and prepare yourself for my tale of woe.
Did a kick at a dance/exercise class two and a half months ago and the force from my leg going up meant my other leg slipped under me and I went down hard on my bottom. Then, when putting the mat away I 'felt' something go but it seemed OK and I thought I'd imagined it.
Twenty four hours later was walking back from an appointment with the bank when my back spasmed and this happened repeatedly over the next twenty four hours until I rang my G.P., who was in all honesty pretty dismissive and just prescribed pain relief.
Since then it's been - well, I don't know how to explain it to be honest.
Pain has been dreadful. I've gone from being this smiley energetic person to a wincing wreck of a woman. The pain shifts: today was awful in my thigh and bottom, like someone digging into me with knives, but usually it's lower back. It takes an age to 'straighten' after sitting. Any movement has to be done slowly especially swinging legs around so e.g. getting in and out of bed/the car is difficult.
I have seen a chiropractor four times now. There does seem to be some temporary relief but it doesn't last.
Its had a horrendous impact on my personal life. Six months ago I enjoyed the gym, walking, church and my job.
Now - ha! The gym is obviously out of the question and I can't manage walking. I've had to stop going to church as it hurts my back to sit for so long on the hard benches. My job has become (I'm not kidding) a mini form or torture. I am in pain from when I go in to when I leave and unfortunately it hasn't been made permanent (it's a long story but I was having horrible problems in my other job due to general weirdness and it was a 45 mile commute
what was I thinking )and so when this opportunity came up I took it.
I've no way of knowing if the not-being-permanent thing is because of my back but even I have to admit my attendance has been patchy. Furthermore I just don't have the sparkle or enthusiasm, I'm always tired and out of sorts.
Pain relief wise - co codamol made very little difference, Naproxen - so/so but ultimately not helpful and so now I am on Methocarbanol and Tramadol. To be honest the pain has got worse not better over the months.
My relationship has finished. I understand why but I'm still so upset. I can't really even think properly about it. I feel vulnerable because if someone broke in (I know, unlikely but still) I'd be helpless. And how to think about meeting someone else in this state (I know that's not an immediate priority but long term I do want to marry, have children.)
I'm worried about money: my job finishes in June and I need to sort another one but my confidence is down the toilet.
Well that was a long moan! I have an MRI in early May so will have to see if anything comes out of that.