Not eating

[Opal]

I am a member but I changed my name because I am ashamed.

I have had problems with my eating for years now I struggle to eat normally but recently I have been starving myself.
I am eating practically nothing in the day, usually an apple for lunch and maybe some chicken and vegetables in the evening. I am a reasonable weight still but I am starting to get bony. I am constantly exhausted and I am pale all of the time. I think about eating all the time but when I eat properly I feel awful and guilty.

I went to see my GP but she just weighed me and said I was fine, so I don't know what to do.
I don't really know many people where I live and there is not anyone I can speak to. I just feel a bit scared, its very quickly getting out of control.

I don't really know why I am saying this, I just wanted to tell someone.

Opal I understand a little of what you are talking about but I am the other extreme - binge eating but I do know the feelings of guilt very well. I have been to see a counsellor and whilst I am not cured it has helped. I know my local womens centre also have an eating disorders support group which is very good - pehaps this would help you to feel less alone. Are you aware of your triggers and why you feel better when you don't eat? You may need to hit your GP over the head and demand some help b4 it becomes an emergency situation. Can you talk to any friends or have you a dp or dh that could listen to you? I know it helps talking @ it and it helps the guilty feelings go away. You could perhaps set yourself a target of things to eat for each meal - nothing too heavy and try and increase week to week when you can. Don't know if any of this helps but please keep talking to someone - don't keep it all in.

hi opal, have no personal experience but have close friend who has suffered on and off with anorexia. As taramac has already said, go back to your GP and demand help. It will be hard but try and tell him/her what you're telling us. Do you have female GP, if poss make an appointment with her, she may have more understanding. I know it's easy for me to say, but don't be ashamed, lots of people suffer from this, you are not alone.