Back to normal??

[Lolimax]

I am one very lucky lass. A few months ago I suffered a rare neuro condition that was diagnosed relatively quickly and unlike most people who have it the only complications are slight memory loss and headaches (most people have strokes and/or epilepsy).
I will be returning to work in the future and with careful monitoring and medication I should go on to be a pita to my DH and DC.
So why aren't I the luckiest person in the world? I've had a near miss but I survived it, it clearly wasn't my time. But I'm different.
Has anyone else gone through something life changing and come out the other side a different person? Do I need a gentle MN kick up the bum?

I mean why don't I feel the luckiest person? I feel grateful but every twinge etc I worry that something else is happening!

Hi Lolimax

I read your post and just had to reply. I know exactly how you feel. I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer in 2013. I have been through Chemo, Surgery and Radiotherapy. I am now in theory and as far as I know Cancer free. So obviously other than taking a hormone drug, I should be back to my normal self and feel glad to be alive.

But I am left with Lymphoedema from the removal of my lymph nodes. This means I have to wear a compression sleeve everyday, a constant reminder that I had cancer. I also have a lot of pain in the breast area, and of course the constant worry that it could come back!

So am I just feeling sorry for myself? Or have I been through a life changing event and still getting used to the new me?!

I think I now realise that nobody really understands how we feel, unless they have been through it. Hence the reason I replied to your post. I don't think you need a kick up the bum, I think you need to know you aren't alone! Because I know I have days when I feel that my life just isn't my own anymore.

So sending you a supportive (((((((hug))))))))) Happy to listen anytime if that helps xx

Thanks lovebeingananny and well done on beating the cancer! You get exactly how I feel! I went out with DH for a 'normal' night out last night. He was over the moon especially as I can't drink now due to the meds so he has his own taxi service. I know I'm different but I'm hoping I'm a bit nicer and caring.
Thanks again for your reply xx