can anyone calm me down feeling slightly terrified ..shouldnt have googled

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Hi , im terrified i may have leukaemia ...
i havent felt right for a long time , tired and run down , moved house twice last year , stress over that and other issues ,
i suffer with low iron for months ,(always ) taken iron when have my period as (heavy periods )
on and off last year blood tests all ok except low iron , in Feb had a host of tests done liver , kidney , thytoid the lot all fine except slightly low white blood count , 3.5 ..she wasnt concerned at all said this can happen and indeed in past i have had it low then its picked back up ..
did tell me not to worry ..come back for re test in 2 months .

that said iv felt fluy about 4 weeks ago , not bad enough to go to bed but not right , kind of hot sensation on my back and legs , that went, now last few days returned ....
i know i shouldnt but i googled and now terrified ...

im due to have blood tests re done in 2 weeks ..then will see my doc for results ...im just not sure i can wait, but doubt i will be able to get an appointment any sooner ...

can a virus be the cause for this ? for so long ? could it be something less synister ?
sorry big ran but im just a little scared today ..

Have you lots of bruises? Dad was feeling absolutely brilliant when he went for a routine blood test and it was diagnosed on the same day. If you've had blood tests, they've spotted something that nasty.

Hope you feel better soon. Try to focus on eating well, doing some exercise and getting a good nights sleep.

thanks punkrockergirl for your reply and advice x

my task for the next 3 days is NO internet ....to see if my anxiety is worse or in fact gets slightly better ....as DR Google is not a good tool your right , iv be trawling every site possible for information on L and this wont be helping im sure ...but somehow i just cant stop myself ...
so thats my homework from my therapist , so after today i shouldnt be on her for 3 days !!! scary thought ...but im going to try ....

Sorry, x-posted, OP. Hope your cbt helps. But I stand by my advice to stay away from Dr. Google

choc , no no bruises .....hope yor dads ok ...

thanks punkrocker x

i know no one can give me the right answers , i have to just wait and see next week what my blood test results will be , im just grateful for some replies as i am so worried .

Anxiety is a horrible, horrible thing. Sending you

thank you and yes it is .. x

Google convinced me I had a detached retina the other day - turned out to be hayfever

thanks , yes google is not a friend ...

HA is very horrible - and you tell yourself that once you get over what is currently killing you then you'll feel better in yourself. It only lasts until the next terminal illness of course ( and I'm not making light of people who are seriously unwell,) but the HA sufferer always imagines the worst. So, you'll have ' something ' but instead of it being a virus/ flu/ just one of those things, it HAS to be leukaemia. The sane side of your brain knows it isn't so try and listen to that side. Honestly, you will be fine.

Take all the help you can get re HA and also try distraction techniques .. So a really engrossing book for example or a little shopping trip or a hot bath with chocolate. Whatever works for you. It does help

thanks Marnirose for replying it is awful in my head today irrational side playing games with my rational side constantly .....

I know . It's horrible but you can take control. Do something very tiny to make you feel better now. Anything at all.

cooking i love cooking that takes my mind of everything ....thanks for listening have a nice evening yourself x

Make a cake!!!

Have a good evening yourself x

x

going to get blood tests done today then the wait till friday for results , still so frightened and worried hate this feeling

just to tie up my thread , blood test results all came back normal no sign of L doctor reassured me , the lab would be calling asap if in any doubt ..so that was good to know .
few other symptoms are persisting so will keep eye on them but thanks to those who posted and helped me .