Hi,
On Saturday I got a letter telling me I had high grade dyskaryosis and would need a colposcopy. Cue googling and scaring myself to death. Managed to calm down until today when I spoke to the nurse who did my smear who told me the results are severe and I have to go to the appointment that would be very soon.
Came home to find my appointment is next Thursday. Bricking it. I've avoided smears for god knows how long so I'm petrified I've left it too late and I'm passed the precancer stage.
I'm not scared of the colposcopy. Or even the treatment I might have but I am petrified I'm going to be told it's cancer and I'll need a hysterectomy and chemo. Waiting is horrible but knowing that I'm being seen so soon is only making me worse because now I'm nearly positive it'll have changed from precancerous to cancer.