I've battled my weight for years and had good periods and bad periods -11.6st-15.5st @5ft7.
I'm living well right now: don't drink or smoke, don't eat processed foods, low carb, I'm active, can walk up steep hills no problem, job that involves no sitting down, lifting weights etc, like gym every day. and yet my BMI is 29.3, almost official obesity.
I can live with it, I'm not that fat actually, I carry it well. Nobody would see me coming down the street and pick me out as obese or anything.
But I really feel like I'm in the wrong body. I have a figure some would be jealous of, all bum and tits. Really jubbly and voluptuous. I don't want it though, I want to be really toned and androgenousy. I have felt, up to now, that if I was just 'good' enough I would get there, just a case of diet and exercise. But now I'm pushing 30 and doing all the right things and nothing doing, I just feel frump beckoning. Unless I live like a MONK, this is it. I'm quite feminist and know that I should celebrate my curves and this is how women are meant to be but I just have a sad voice in my head saying "no - other women, not me..."
I think this is more my shape than my weight IYSWIM and I cant be happy thinking about it - where can I go for help with this? GP? Does counselling for such a thing exist?