I just don't want to keep banging on at DH and my IRL friends about it; I'm only 43, I've lost nearly half my lung function, have a 60% blockage in my left anterior descending coronary artery to boot. Due to meds/enforced lack of decent exercise (used to ride, play rugby, elliptical, etc.) I've gained weight to the point that not only have I gone up three jeans sizes, I have ($$$) leather boots that I can't wear anymore b/c my legs have swollen. Some of the worst parts are a) I visited friends a while back that I hadn't seen in 6+ months, and the friend who opened the door covered up quick, to her credit, but the shock then pity at the way I looked hurt, a lot; and b) I just feel like everyone around me in real life is sick of hearing about it. If I mention it around my kids (15 and 13) they immediately worry themselves sick, I can't say "ouch" without DH going on high 'do we need the hospital' alert, my mum has the same reaction as my kids...and my friends just change the subject. But, I'm scared, you know? Scared, and frustrated because until this happened I was always "young for my age" and strong, vital, stuff like that. Right now (it's -5*F where I live in Pennsylvania USA) I cannot even LEAVE THE HOUSE because of what such cold air does to my lungs. The phrase "shack-wacky" does not even begin to describe me, haha.
Is there anyone here with either/both of these conditions? For what it's worth, I got the FM after a bad case of histoplasmosis (endemic in the Ohio River Valley where I grew up) way back in 1998, and the scarring in my lungs wasn't even detected until 2009.