its been almost a year since peter was put back on the list since his op. and over 18months since his original spell on the list. and we are still waiting. still wishing for the phone to ring, and to change our lives forever.
we shouldnt be living like this, somedays i feel like its a dream and i will wake up soon. but i never wake up from it.
i have bad dreams, i have good dreams. i have bad days and good days. but today, i just feel so fed up with the whole thing. i dont like the VAD to be honest, its a pretty big restriction on our lives. we cant go out this morning as we are waiting for the blood nurse again, and its raining, peter would go bang if he got the machine wet.
seems like my whole life is waiting for someone.