Pregnancy and OCD

[everythinghappensforareason]

Hi, I'm in such a mess right now I know I have To make the decision myself but I was hoping to hear from people who may have gone through what I am now or have thoughts on this. So I am pregnant around 4 weeks, I have a 3.5 yo and 1yo, I was diagnosed with ocd not long ago after suffering for as long as I can remember I finally got help and spoke about my ocd (I didn't know it was ocd) I thought I was just crazy!! But I finally found a great therapist I trust and was diagnosed and should be starting medication and cbt then I found this out! It's a huge shock I was on the pill, I won't be able to take meds whilst pregnant it would cause defects and problems to the baby! We struggle at times money wise with two kids, and I was so ready to focus on getting better for myself and my family! But I keep switching between thinking "no way I can't end this" and "please just make this go away" :( I feel awful and confused I never ever thought I would consider an abortion I don't judge women for it just never thought it would be something I would even consider. I'm just so scared I don't feel attached to it like my other pregnancies ino it's not the right time but I just don't know if I can end this, both choices will effect me massively. I'm scared if I abort I will regret it and I won't be able to un do it. Any replies would be helpful thank you x

I was diagnosed with OCD after my second pregnancy. Tbh I just thought I had massive anxiety, but my OCD was in the form of unhelpful, negative thinking. CBT saved my life, no question. But I did go on to have a healthy third pregnancy. And I've also since had a termination of an unexpected pregnancy that I don't regret. What you do is entirely your choice, whatever you choose is the right decision. I would hold back on thinking you can't take your meds. There will be options, I have been on different anti depressants and medications on and off throughout my pregnancies, and also while breast feeding, with no problems. For me, the choice to abort was far easier than I ever imagined it would be. The effect on my other dc of another pregnancy, both it's toll on my health, mental well being and our finances and housing situation made it a very logical choice. I felt only relief. But don't make the decision based on your medication. You're very early on, and you have time. I had my termination at 9 weeks, after approaching my gp at 6. If you book in for one now, your appointment will be made but you still have time to change your mind. If I'd known there would be several weeks wait, I'd have gone straight to my gp rather then thinking things through for two weeks and still having to wait after the decision was made. Make an appointment with your gp to discuss your medication options. Ime, being pregnant will get you access to lots of different help, there are specialist mental health midwives you can chat to. Good luck. Please don't panic, you have time to think everything through.

Thank you for your reply, I am unsure if it's my ocd making things hard my reasons for considering abortion aren't because of reasons like financial etc, I think that's a natural worry that everyone has, and we would manage but I'm having thoughts of feeling selfish if I have it in case I loose control and can't cope, or it all gets to much and I'm hurtful or neglectful so these are very unhelpful and possibly ocd thoughts but I don't no. I don't want to harm it and friends have pointed out that it is out of character for me to be considering abortion, but I've never felt so worried and confused over a pregnancy before. :( x