Semi-regular here and name changed for this. Feel the need to get my jumbled thoughts out! I've started to become a little uneasy with my relationship with alcohol. I do not believe I'm an alcoholic, and I don't think I need professional help, I'm just a little uncomfortable. I'm wondering if anybody else has ever felt the same.
I don't drink every day, and sometimes not even every week, but when I do I worry that I like it a bit too much. I don't drink to pass out, and I don't do anything too foolish, but in the right circumstances (social ones) I sometimes feel a bit out of control. I don't drink at home all that often - DH and I will share a bottle of wine sometimes, or I'll have a couple of beers or ciders, maybe two occasions a week max. I can have alcohol in the house without drinking it or even seriously craving it. I have a toddler so don't go out that much. I don't think it's affecting my ability to look after my child or my ability to do my job. I don't think it's affecting my relationship. I had no trouble not drinking when I was pregnant and then when I was breastfeeding.
I don't know what it is that makes me uneasy. Maybe I'm worried for the future. Maybe I feel like at the moment I can control it but that I'm almost at my limit. Maybe I'm over analysing it. I don't know.
Any thoughts?