To cut a long story short, I had an abnormal smear a few years ago, been ok since, but have just had another test done privately which I'm waiting for the results in writing for. The receptionist who didn't seem very professional or competent, told me that she'd posted them, couldn't give me results over the phone apart from "it's not good". I'm now majorly panicking, please help! I had a colposcopy last time it was abnormal, and some minor treatment to correct it, and I could easily go through that again without too much stress, but I now have crazy thoughts racing through my mind about already having cancer and leaving my children etc please help calm me down, I know I'm being crazy but waiting for this letter is doing me no favours