Bulimia

[lauralou85]

My bulimia is back after 4 years of no binging and purging. I lost weight through exercise and diet last year and now I'm terrified of putting any back on, I'm so disappointed in myself.

It's ok. You're very brave to come here and talk about it. Don't binge. if you're have already done it, don't purge. Consider it your last fail and move forward. And from now, whenever you feel tempted, come here and talk to us.
There is professional help outside. I am no expert, but your post sounded so miserable I didn't want to leave it unanswered.
I just googled bulimia+help and this site came first. Not sure it is any good, but maybe it is worth a read. www.bulimiahelp.org/forum.

LauraLou. I'm so sorry you are finding yourself in this situation again. I can relate as I also have an ED. If you need to chat feel free to pm me. But I echo what above poster has already said.

don't be disappointed, it is a mental illness and no more a cause for shame than a physical illness.

it isn't your fault.

please, please get professional help ASAP.

good luck.

Hi Lauralou,
how are you today.

Hi LauraLou, we are here for you if you want to come back and talk

Hi LauraLou. I can really relate to your OP. I am also bulimic but in more of a recovery phase at the moment.
Do you have any RL support? I saw a counsellor for a while, but telling my DH and best friend was helpful. I also remove trigger food from the house until I feel able to deal with it there again. I am about to start seeing a psychotherapist to try to understand why I had my last relapse - the relapse and the weight issues it brought up again really scared me.
My DH has thrown away the scales too. I am trying to focus on health rather than weight. Could you do that too?
It is hard though. PM me if you like. Hugs.