I have had the worst of worst years starting from last Christmas when I was diagnosed with a serious illness needing major surgery then treatment.
Due to my h being a fuckwit and abusive drunk we lost our house and I left him and me and my dd are living in a rented flat with no hope of buying another property.
I lost a very close family member recently. It was a sudden death and I am in shock. Funeral was earlier this week. It was horrific.
I am due to be back at work but I just can't face it. I feel literally unable to cope and want to hide away in the house and hide, I can't cope with any sort of stress and am tearful. I literally want to hide.
Would it be worth seeing my GP ? Am I depressed or just stressed, I feel like I have had disaster after disaster thrown at me over the last year and I need to hide away.
I have had a lot of time off work due to my illness already over the last year and feel I need to get back but am crying thinking about it. I am a HCP so need to be 100% at work as I am dealing with people.
I worked for a few weeks up till last week and it was ok but I feel like a fraud at work and out of my depth. Now I have the bereavement to deal with too and fear it has tipped me over the edge.
Do I need to pull myself together ? Not sure what to do. The though of admitting how I feel to my GP horrifies me.