I previously had a post about the pain I have had since labour 3 months ago and need some advice from anyone who has been in a similar situation.
Apologies this is so long but feel I better give the fill story!
My labour turned into an emergency situation quite quickly as after only 30 mins of pushing, DDs heart rate was dropping which resulted in me having an episiotomy and forceps delivery.
The recovery after has been quite dramatic, in which I have had excruciating pain whenever I have needed to pass my bowels and this is still ongoing over 3 months later. It is unbareable, I feel dizzy, clammy and asthough I am going to pass out. It feels like razor blades all the way inside me!
I have been back and fore to the doctors since, which included 2 X out of hours visits to GPs and an overnight hospital stay. I have been checked for everything - haemorrhoids (internal/external), polyps - which I don't have. The doctor now thinks my stitches have been too tight, pulling everything in "smaller" which is causing my scar to stretch and tear each time, resulting I banal fissures and that I have possible nerve damage.
On top of this, I can feel a very uncomfortable "bulge" and full feeling just when I need to go in my vaginal area. Nothing comes out my vagina but I think I have a possible rectocele. When in hospital they said I had a possible prolapse but doing pelvic floor exercises would help but I feel this is getting worse rather than better. I have also lost the ability to "hold in" when I need to go even for a short space of time, and literally have to run because the pain of trying to hold everything in for a few minutes is unbareably sore. I also don't feel I could hold it in even if I wanted to!
This makes feeding and caring for my baby extremely hard. During a feed, sometimes I need to put her down midway as she screams and gets upset because I just have to go. Once I have been, I need to sit in a hot bath to relieve some of the pain for a couple of minutes which makes it difficult for me to go out aswell.
All of this has resulted in me getting postnatal depression and I am currently on fluoxetine, which isn't helping overly but that's a different story!
The doctors have tried everything. GTN cream to aid fissure healing, 2 x local anaesthetic numbing creams and 1 x local anaesthic gel. I have been on dihydricodeine (stopped due to constipation effects), duclofenac, paracetamol, ibuprofen, laxatives to keep things "soft" and nothing helps, although ensuring I don't get constipated does help in many ways to prevent things getting even worse. In hospital I was given an enema and also given oramorph (morphine) before an internal examination and I was crying in pain - that's how sore I am.
My question is - I am waiting on my gynaecologist appointment to come through but have been told this wil be after the new year. I am struggling so bad and the thought of not knowing when I will be seen, let alone having to wait for an appointment for whatever treatment can be done is killing me. Can I speed things up in anyway? I have been to the doctors numerous times in tears but seem to be running in circles.
Any advice welcome as I really so not know how long I can carry on like this. It's making my life a misery
Thanks x