Bulimic and don't know where to turn to

[purplehollymonster]

I've name changed for this because there are people in rl who know me on here.

I've been bulimic for four years now and honestly have no idea where to turn to. I want to stop but honestly have no idea how to. I always promise myself that I won't purge again, that it'll be the last time I do it but then something happens and the cycle of binging and purging starts again. I just feel so out of control.

I was thinking phoning for a GP appointment tomorrow and taking it from there. The thing is though, even though I'm bulimic I'm actually overweight. That's not the bulimia talking neither. I'm 5'2 and about 73 kg. I think it's because I also binge on huge amounts and I guess it would be impossible to bring everything I ate back up. Before I started binging and purging I was actually slim.

I'd feel like such a fake going to the GP claiming to have an eating disorder when I'm the weight I am. Even though I've since done some research and learned it's actually not unusual for people with bulimia to be overweight. Still I feel kind of silly going in there when the GP will likely want to weigh me and I'm so heavy.

I know I can't keep living like this though.

Go. Just go, tell them everything.

Have you taken a look on the beat website? They say there that bulimia is harder to spot because bulimics are often a 'normal' weight.

I've had periods of time in my life where I abused laxatives - those weren't the times I was my thinnest.

Please go.

im bulimic too, although going through a good patch and not doing it very much. Did today though. . I understand how frightening it can be.

Theres a charity who may be able to help
www.b-eat.co.uk/

Maybe give them a call tommorow and see what they say or if they can suggest anything.