am I just complaining about having normal brain instead of having awesomely disciplined and focused mind?
I don't have problem with physical energy and fatigue - I can function on little sleep, do house in one day with kids underfeet...ask me what to do and I won't have problem expending physical energy for you. Menial tasks are oddly relaxing.
But my brain...I really struggle to concentrate. At work it feels like I spend far more time rabbittrailing, forgetting immediately what I was doing and getting my brain back to focus. Problems that require complex logical thinking and debugging will just take ages to get done, when I think like it would take a lot less time than that with healthier people. I envy my colleagues sometimes how quickly they can get to the point and just do things, although they can have occasionally have slower days. I'm so distractable. It's not just matter of taking ages to get started like with serial procrastinators.
Boredom would easily explain away, true, but honestly, I'm like that with everything that requires lots of concentration. I also avoid emails and commenting for that reason, sometimes even when urgent communication is required. University years were hard for that reason. Having kids has not made it worse.
Is anyone else experiencing that? Inability to handle focussy things and thinking.
Other symptoms: grumpiness, low frustration threshold, addictive behaviours, overeating, not caring about anything unless I really have to. I went to GP about it recently - and it was....let's just say this GP is probably better at helping out with common ear and throat problems. Life is hectic right now, but I'm just gathering all mental energy and recommendations to see the right professionals and get opinions. There's definitely should be better way to live than that..No idea who to self-refer to.....