My mum is schizophrenic:( and has been in hospital/home pretty much since then, while I went into foster care and then to my aunt (who wasn't the most maternal of women and cause me just as much upset as my mother). My mother breifly came off her meds when I was 7, long enough to have my brother with another mentally ill man, and they were both deemed well enough to care for me too. it turned out to be a very bad experiment all round, I went back to my aunt and my brother was adopted into his fathers family, altho we were kept in touch with each other.
all in all my childhood was very much less than ideal, altho my brothers was lots better (and I love to be able to say that. he has just qualified as a doctor too, so I am very proud of him:))
my mother has now had all of the different types of meds available is isn't able to take them any more. apparently after a while (well, in her case only maybe??) your body builds up a resistance to the meds and so they need to be changed. even the jabs no longer work. she is now full on mentally ill:(:( with no chance of ever being able to care for herself.
she scares me, and my children, and so it is a big issue for me to go to visit her (altho I do try to at least four times a year). she doesn't know where I live, or any other contact details for me, altho her care worker has my email so she is able to srite to me in that way and me to her, which I am able to deal with, as I can see who the email is from and open it when I feel able to IYSWIM.
her illness was offset by drugs (heroin, cocain etc) while she was pregnant with me, so I am so very very lucky to be here at all, much less be a normal mum(well, as normal as any other mum here
). I do wonder tho if my kiddies immunity problems can be due to what she did?????
I don't know how any of this helps you, but it helps me to be able to speak about it and to see that there are others out there who know about it. none of my RL friends have any experience of anything like this and so never know how to help me when it is coming up to a visit.
Just writing this makes me feel sad, just cos it makes me feel like I want a mum, and don't have one really:(