Now I know how my kids feel!

[Mondaymorningmortification]

Just not long in from school run, had to have a shower because I had apparently pooed myself. Not a lot but enough.

I am just pleased I didn't go for a cuppa at my friend's, that would be incredibly embarrassing.

Before we left for school I had just been to the loo to poo, thought I'd wiped enough, felt a bit 'moist' walking back

I had a second degree tear with my natural delivery of my ds 4 years ago. The tearing was front to back, towards my bum. If am truthful, I am finding I feel am never entirely 'clean' even after much careful wiping, using moist loo roll. I end up putting on a sanitary towel if I've pooed for afterwards- don't want skid marks! God I cannot believe I am writing this. Too mortified to tell even my DH or close friends. I don't know whether to go to the gp about this or not.

All those accidents during potty training, esp with dd who had real pooing issues, now I really know how they feel.

Is there anyone who experiences similar?

I don't think I am incontinent but don't want to ignore too much longer, it's potentially really humiliating and a bit manky really.

Poor you OP

Definitely go to your GP. I had similar problems after a second degree tear with DD and am now having physiotherapy. You really don't have to live with it.

I would urge your to GP, I had to muster courage to go there myself today about piles. It is embarrassing but I am sure they have seen it all before (if you can excuse the pun).

I am sure they can do something to help.

Everybody thank you! I am wondering what is actually happening- do I have issues due to my tear, piles, pelvic floor issues or just not taking enough time on the loo? I appreciate the suggestions made and will see what happens over the next week or so. If it happens again, I mean that it is a proper 'episode' rather than just skidmarks (is this normal?!) then I will be making an appointment to see my gp. I know they will have seen it all before and I know if it is serious there are solutions, doesn't take away from the fact that my gp is the same age as me so will be extra mortifying!