How can I control my emotions?

[glendatheveryexcitedwitch]

Hi
I'm a big wuss and cry at bloody everything remember the John Lewis snowman Xmas ad? which at home I don't mind as that's part of me, however I'm doing my midwifery degree and am about to go out on placement. I am a mother of 3 with the youngest only 6 mths old, I work on a maternity ward and since going back after mat leave I've been lucky enough to witness a couple of births amongst other things, but I well up and when we had an emergency with a flat baby I did what I had to do ( call 2's, test cord gases and run for other equipment) but watching the midwives working on the baby - which picked up with in 2 minutes and was perfectly fine was just a typical diamorphine baby - I was holding my breath and had tears pricking my eyes!!!

During my training I'll be delivering babies, working on babies and possibly witnessing still births and I worry how I can keep a hold on my emotions?? I want to be an empathic caring women centred midwife not a blubbering wreck!!

Any ideas on how I can rein in my tears? Homeopathic remedies? I really don't want this to overshadow my training.

I read somewhere that if you press your tongue to the roof of your mouth and try to keep it there, it will help to curb the tears.

It does get easier as you get older. You must be an empath

Not really an answer to your question, but I'll share anyway. When I had my second miscarriage at week 14, the midwife was a true bitch and treated me like shit. And her total lack of sympathy made it so much worse. So, a person who says "I am so sorry" with tears in her eyes is actually good in my personal experience.

The nurse who delivered our dd1 had tears in her eyes. It was a much wanted baby and I found the tears quite touching. But - do it discretely. My doula started bawling at the birth of dd2. Lights were low, dd1 had just been delivered by my dh and we were having that special few moments together and out came this sob by the doula which kind of intruded. So, it s fine to well up but stay in the background.