I am trying again. Having hot flushes and feel a bit sick at the moment. Hopefully i will crack it this time, I can't keep giving up. I'm also giving alcohol a miss and I need to wean myself off of coke.
I'm so sick of myself, I need to do something. I feel real self loathing that I'm smoking, having a glass of wine etc etc and then I want a fag because I feel miserable about it all.